Realizing our identity in the world is
Easier said than done, His
Love conquers the confusion.
Analyze your character and spirit, by
Taking a long look
In the mirror, also know as the His Book.
Overdose yourself with His compassion; and
Never will He judge, abuse or
Send you away, His
House is for every type of person, come
In. and when you decide to stay, the
Person you are, is forever changed, the
New light shining brought into your eyes, I'm
On fire for a greater purpose.
Told your beautiful, because it's true.
Reaching a dream unthinkable.
Eliminating the violence and the battles inside with
Love comes Faith and miracles.
Injured minds and hearts healed forever;
Gone and lost in His loving arms.
Overflow of forgiveness from Him to you
Not Lost, but Found.
Imagination is My Strength
Friday, August 20, 2010
A Kiss.
The million dollar view
so many people tend to see through.
a simple thing taken for granted,
open your hearts and leave your mind abandoned.
the sun setting orange as it says goodnight;
the swans matted white feathers
with her babies trailing behind.
the fish follow you in the lake as you
walk along the path -
Imagine what it's like to breath underwater.
the sky has been painted by the Great Artist
with the brightest red and deepest purple
the world will ever come to know.
the surrounding scene goes to show
everyone who passes by aimlessly
talking on their cell phone
has never noticed and
missed the world's greatest gift -
the sun's kiss on the evening sky
with her colorful undaunted lips.
so many people tend to see through.
a simple thing taken for granted,
open your hearts and leave your mind abandoned.
the sun setting orange as it says goodnight;
the swans matted white feathers
with her babies trailing behind.
the fish follow you in the lake as you
walk along the path -
Imagine what it's like to breath underwater.
the sky has been painted by the Great Artist
with the brightest red and deepest purple
the world will ever come to know.
the surrounding scene goes to show
everyone who passes by aimlessly
talking on their cell phone
has never noticed and
missed the world's greatest gift -
the sun's kiss on the evening sky
with her colorful undaunted lips.
The Truth is Alive
Getting up to fall back down,
Over run with confusion.
Doors close, but new ones always open.
Inferiority is an evaporating feeling within me.
Smiling and Laughter is the cure for pain and
Love of a Father closes the hole.
Overcoming the intimidating fears.
Voices and Opinions collide in confrontation but
Excavating the living truth is not hard.
Heading down a narrow path is
Easier with your Best Friend who is closer than a brother.
Inadequate enemies will try to attack but will
Suffer and fail in the Light.
Real, genuine joy shall conquer with
Everlasting peace as my victory.
And a shelter that will never cave in.
Liberty is through a prayer.
<3 <3 <3
Over run with confusion.
Doors close, but new ones always open.
Inferiority is an evaporating feeling within me.
Smiling and Laughter is the cure for pain and
Love of a Father closes the hole.
Overcoming the intimidating fears.
Voices and Opinions collide in confrontation but
Excavating the living truth is not hard.
Heading down a narrow path is
Easier with your Best Friend who is closer than a brother.
Inadequate enemies will try to attack but will
Suffer and fail in the Light.
Real, genuine joy shall conquer with
Everlasting peace as my victory.
And a shelter that will never cave in.
Liberty is through a prayer.
<3 <3 <3
Monday, August 16, 2010
To the One who Knows me.
After 10:30 at night,
In the dark corner of my room
with a small flash light,
I read you life changing letter
gripped in my hand tight.
I believe when you say
Your thoughts for me our endless
like the sand covered by the sea;
And when everyone else leaves -
You will be closer than ever to comfort me.
To my Heavenly Father.
There is no where else
Love and Grace abound,
than in you arms.
You wrap me in Your peace
and I soak in Your
endless forgiveness and strength.
My battles were dark
and You fought and defeated all
of my current and coming enemies.
No more do I feel inferior and small.
You KNOW and understand me
and everything I've had to go through.
Now I never stand alone,
You have conquered my fears
and taken my heart astole.
There's something precious
about Your healing touch.
You take my pain and hurt away
and give me joy as a everlasting replacement.
You KNOW me from the inside out;
You knew me even before
I knew myself.
And I never want to escape your presence.
I am truly nothing without You.
Your Son and Your blood
are for me.
I am Your daughter,
made in Your image, whole and healed.
Seeking You face and
following You at Your guided pace.
Love, Your Daughter
In the dark corner of my room
with a small flash light,
I read you life changing letter
gripped in my hand tight.
I believe when you say
Your thoughts for me our endless
like the sand covered by the sea;
And when everyone else leaves -
You will be closer than ever to comfort me.
To my Heavenly Father.
There is no where else
Love and Grace abound,
than in you arms.
You wrap me in Your peace
and I soak in Your
endless forgiveness and strength.
My battles were dark
and You fought and defeated all
of my current and coming enemies.
No more do I feel inferior and small.
You KNOW and understand me
and everything I've had to go through.
Now I never stand alone,
You have conquered my fears
and taken my heart astole.
There's something precious
about Your healing touch.
You take my pain and hurt away
and give me joy as a everlasting replacement.
You KNOW me from the inside out;
You knew me even before
I knew myself.
And I never want to escape your presence.
I am truly nothing without You.
Your Son and Your blood
are for me.
I am Your daughter,
made in Your image, whole and healed.
Seeking You face and
following You at Your guided pace.
Love, Your Daughter
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Our Secret Garden.
The day is filled with red roses and a yellow sun.
And up ahead there is a large estate
with high walls and a broken gate.
Our foot prints in the over-grown grass,
and then we've seem to reach a status
higher than any other imaginative class.
As we conquer the walls to seek what's inside
to find what we've been waiting for,
for what seems like a lifetime.
and your moss-colored eyes,
hold a riotess surprise
that I could never deny.
Ending up in the north side garden
sharing a cup of cream colored tea,
I cant even believe
you made our own
secret escape.
Where all the shame melts away
like a candle with a searing hot flame.
We've seem to loose track of the days
and our vision never gets hazy
from the warm rain.
The tall hedges of green, make a maze
for us to get lost in
when we decide to go crazy.
And then the night starts to fall
like a cloth covering the sky
and we only try to stall
by forgetting the morning;
but reality comes
when the dawn breaks and shatters.
And our secret hideaway has to wait.
Until then, we both wont find the time to think straight
once we see that broken vine covered gate.
this took to long to write.......and i feel it doesnt even make too much sense.
- <3
And up ahead there is a large estate
with high walls and a broken gate.
Our foot prints in the over-grown grass,
and then we've seem to reach a status
higher than any other imaginative class.
As we conquer the walls to seek what's inside
to find what we've been waiting for,
for what seems like a lifetime.
and your moss-colored eyes,
hold a riotess surprise
that I could never deny.
Ending up in the north side garden
sharing a cup of cream colored tea,
I cant even believe
you made our own
secret escape.
Where all the shame melts away
like a candle with a searing hot flame.
We've seem to loose track of the days
and our vision never gets hazy
from the warm rain.
The tall hedges of green, make a maze
for us to get lost in
when we decide to go crazy.
And then the night starts to fall
like a cloth covering the sky
and we only try to stall
by forgetting the morning;
but reality comes
when the dawn breaks and shatters.
And our secret hideaway has to wait.
Until then, we both wont find the time to think straight
once we see that broken vine covered gate.
this took to long to write.......and i feel it doesnt even make too much sense.
- <3
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
A Strange Thing
Love is a strange thing.
it cannot be seen, heard, breathed in or summed up in a writing, but only felt.
Love - she is not words or promises. She is a series of actions. She gives and sacrifices.
that is Love. A Love that doesn't grow cold, one that never grows old - surprises with each passing day.
She is not a boat in a raging storm with piercing winds on the black sea. Love is calm and brings peace.
Love is a guide and no a guessing game. She is found in the oddest of places.
Where and When you least expect her,
but when you actually need her the most.
Ive had people who say they love me - im NO expert on love, but if someone says they love me but then repeatedly do stupid actions that counter what they said, then they dont love. sad to say, but true. basically what i wanted to sy is that ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. el fin.
-Nicolette
it cannot be seen, heard, breathed in or summed up in a writing, but only felt.
Love - she is not words or promises. She is a series of actions. She gives and sacrifices.
that is Love. A Love that doesn't grow cold, one that never grows old - surprises with each passing day.
She is not a boat in a raging storm with piercing winds on the black sea. Love is calm and brings peace.
Love is a guide and no a guessing game. She is found in the oddest of places.
Where and When you least expect her,
but when you actually need her the most.
Ive had people who say they love me - im NO expert on love, but if someone says they love me but then repeatedly do stupid actions that counter what they said, then they dont love. sad to say, but true. basically what i wanted to sy is that ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS. el fin.
-Nicolette
So Much Happens Across the Room
Your eyes make my thoughts go out in static
and my heart is going so fast, you can hear it sing.
My ears just want to hear you call my name
one more time,
before I collapse in chair
with my head filled with dreams of you.
To breath the sweet air,
and you watch me sit there
wondering if you enter my mind in anyway.
Like a fence with an open gate
and with pleasure, I watch you
make your way through my thoughts.
I'm happily lost,
drowning in memories of you.
And you happen to feel the same about me too.
Only if we both knew.
- :) I wish it would rain, and to have coffee, maybe a good book too....
-nicola ali
and my heart is going so fast, you can hear it sing.
My ears just want to hear you call my name
one more time,
before I collapse in chair
with my head filled with dreams of you.
To breath the sweet air,
and you watch me sit there
wondering if you enter my mind in anyway.
Like a fence with an open gate
and with pleasure, I watch you
make your way through my thoughts.
I'm happily lost,
drowning in memories of you.
And you happen to feel the same about me too.
Only if we both knew.
- :) I wish it would rain, and to have coffee, maybe a good book too....
-nicola ali
How I would like to Conquer the World with You.
We can paint the bird's songs
With the colors that we stole
From the flowers in the neighboring fields.
Rehearse the sun's rise
And the shooting stars
across the night sky;
And then we can take flight
In the ocean's waters.
How deep Can we go?
We can dig a hole to China,
See what the world is like with the Man on the Moon,
And watch the Amazon forest grow.
But even though will never know
Where we might end up;
All we have each other's love,
And that seems to be enough.
i think i write too much - i write three things a night, and they kinda seem to be all different. jeez.
love and joy - Nicole
P.s. Listen to my favorite song by my new favorite artist - Jason Reeves "Someone Somewhere". It's simply amazing and its on of those smiley songs - make you smile every time you listen to them <3
With the colors that we stole
From the flowers in the neighboring fields.
Rehearse the sun's rise
And the shooting stars
across the night sky;
And then we can take flight
In the ocean's waters.
How deep Can we go?
We can dig a hole to China,
See what the world is like with the Man on the Moon,
And watch the Amazon forest grow.
But even though will never know
Where we might end up;
All we have each other's love,
And that seems to be enough.
i think i write too much - i write three things a night, and they kinda seem to be all different. jeez.
love and joy - Nicole
P.s. Listen to my favorite song by my new favorite artist - Jason Reeves "Someone Somewhere". It's simply amazing and its on of those smiley songs - make you smile every time you listen to them <3
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Miracles.
Sometimes we can't see
What we truly need,
Too concerned with the rules to proceed
to our wishes, desires and dreams.
Trapped by our own promises
Foolishly made.
We end up with a crisis
that cannot be tamed.
A miracle is foreseen,
Seems out of reach and cannot be.
Life has always planted
Surprising seeds
that should never be taken for granted.
And towards the end
Always falls into reach.
:) can we die of happiness? hmmm.... probably not - i would have died along time go.....
What we truly need,
Too concerned with the rules to proceed
to our wishes, desires and dreams.
Trapped by our own promises
Foolishly made.
We end up with a crisis
that cannot be tamed.
A miracle is foreseen,
Seems out of reach and cannot be.
Life has always planted
Surprising seeds
that should never be taken for granted.
And towards the end
Always falls into reach.
:) can we die of happiness? hmmm.... probably not - i would have died along time go.....
My Trust is Safe.
I have the choice
And the plan to listen to only one Voice.
The answer is given,
I'm ready and driven
To take the narrow path,
Test my faith and my pride.
I know with You I can last.
My eyes deceive me
So i don't trust what i see.
You've changed me from the inside out.
And I don't have any doubts.
Don't have to prove anything else to me
Cause I already believe.
With you I can go beyond my dreams and destiny.
I want to go on a missions trip to Thailand next summer. i tried talking to my dad about it - but he said i had to be thankful for what i already had and money grows on trees..... -_-. I understand where my dad is coming from. but im not ungrateful where i stand right now, i just feel like God is leading me to do this. and i figured out that when i couldnt get my all the barbies i wanted at the age of five that the dollor bills didnt come from planting a seed. i know we dont have $6,000 just laying around under my couch ready for whatever my wish may be. Talked to my mom - she said we'll talk about in the fall, when i would acutally have to sign up for a trip, she saud i would have to work and save for it. i'm getting a job next month - kinda nerves. BUT, to me money isnt the issues here, its not my worry at all - and i kinda surprised myself, cause every other exchange program ive wanted to do, money was my worry. But here i have this feeling thats its taken care of. God will provide - i do believe this is His will and thsi is for His glory. He wants to bless me, so i belive and trust in God that He will take care of the needs me or my family cant meet.
And the plan to listen to only one Voice.
The answer is given,
I'm ready and driven
To take the narrow path,
Test my faith and my pride.
I know with You I can last.
My eyes deceive me
So i don't trust what i see.
You've changed me from the inside out.
And I don't have any doubts.
Don't have to prove anything else to me
Cause I already believe.
With you I can go beyond my dreams and destiny.
I want to go on a missions trip to Thailand next summer. i tried talking to my dad about it - but he said i had to be thankful for what i already had and money grows on trees..... -_-. I understand where my dad is coming from. but im not ungrateful where i stand right now, i just feel like God is leading me to do this. and i figured out that when i couldnt get my all the barbies i wanted at the age of five that the dollor bills didnt come from planting a seed. i know we dont have $6,000 just laying around under my couch ready for whatever my wish may be. Talked to my mom - she said we'll talk about in the fall, when i would acutally have to sign up for a trip, she saud i would have to work and save for it. i'm getting a job next month - kinda nerves. BUT, to me money isnt the issues here, its not my worry at all - and i kinda surprised myself, cause every other exchange program ive wanted to do, money was my worry. But here i have this feeling thats its taken care of. God will provide - i do believe this is His will and thsi is for His glory. He wants to bless me, so i belive and trust in God that He will take care of the needs me or my family cant meet.
Monday, August 2, 2010
The Potential Feeling
I am not afraid
But forever changed.
A moment passes by,
Your life flashes before your eyes
And you realize
Your box is too small.
It's time to climb the wall
To discover what's new -
The galaxy that lays before you.
I want to reach the unknown;
To be uncomfortable and put out of place.
To conquer the one thing,
That I can't figure out
But willingly to chase.
To explore, to discover, to dream and
To escape,
the Box I live in.
I'm tired of being forced
Into my little square space.
Lately I've been feeling a bit boxed. have you noticed. i tried not to make it too obvious. i want to be put out there to try conquering things - like dreams - who said i had to wait till i graduate high school? my dreams are simple, they are not becoming the CEO of a giant company and make millions upon billions and partying with p. diddy (what a stupid name) on the weekends and rolling in my green pit of paper. i simply just want to live in Europe - learn a new language and discover a culture - to find where the locals eat - how to cook whats in the local region - to not have the need to go to a blasted grocery store and just got out in the back yard and make a good Au gratin or vegetable dish - my dreams. Learning a language at home is not as easy as i thought it would be. Before i finish high school i want to at least know French and Italian. i hope next summer i can go out of the country. living in a little town just motivates me more to grow. :) I'm happy cause i know that i can do all the things i want and more. :) :)))
- Nicole Ali <3
But forever changed.
A moment passes by,
Your life flashes before your eyes
And you realize
Your box is too small.
It's time to climb the wall
To discover what's new -
The galaxy that lays before you.
I want to reach the unknown;
To be uncomfortable and put out of place.
To conquer the one thing,
That I can't figure out
But willingly to chase.
To explore, to discover, to dream and
To escape,
the Box I live in.
I'm tired of being forced
Into my little square space.
Lately I've been feeling a bit boxed. have you noticed. i tried not to make it too obvious. i want to be put out there to try conquering things - like dreams - who said i had to wait till i graduate high school? my dreams are simple, they are not becoming the CEO of a giant company and make millions upon billions and partying with p. diddy (what a stupid name) on the weekends and rolling in my green pit of paper. i simply just want to live in Europe - learn a new language and discover a culture - to find where the locals eat - how to cook whats in the local region - to not have the need to go to a blasted grocery store and just got out in the back yard and make a good Au gratin or vegetable dish - my dreams. Learning a language at home is not as easy as i thought it would be. Before i finish high school i want to at least know French and Italian. i hope next summer i can go out of the country. living in a little town just motivates me more to grow. :) I'm happy cause i know that i can do all the things i want and more. :) :)))
- Nicole Ali <3
Milk & Roses
On the corner of Judson,
Heading East,
The Sun's Rays
Highlight your lies
and I'm not planning to compromise.
The EXIT sign wasn't turned on.
So when the waters of emotion
Caved In,
You were trapped inside you sin.
When we were little
In Your backyard,
Soaked with Kaleidoscope imagination,
Our minds were wiped clean
Of any thought of the things
You would do to me.
You drank my milk and picked me Roses.
You managed to hide
But I could not leave Him or you behind
So I tried
To glue the shattered pieces of your life.
But when I hit the walls end,
Crazy colors spiraled through the dark.
Memories aside to bury;
A black lace bow in my hair
And I'm not scared.
A kiss on my forehead
and we run opposite roads;
I see the shining sun ahead.
i know it doesnt really make sense, but to me it does-- i actually really like this, its kinda crazy but its what is going on in my head haha
-- :)
Heading East,
The Sun's Rays
Highlight your lies
and I'm not planning to compromise.
The EXIT sign wasn't turned on.
So when the waters of emotion
Caved In,
You were trapped inside you sin.
When we were little
In Your backyard,
Soaked with Kaleidoscope imagination,
Our minds were wiped clean
Of any thought of the things
You would do to me.
You drank my milk and picked me Roses.
You managed to hide
But I could not leave Him or you behind
So I tried
To glue the shattered pieces of your life.
But when I hit the walls end,
Crazy colors spiraled through the dark.
Memories aside to bury;
A black lace bow in my hair
And I'm not scared.
A kiss on my forehead
and we run opposite roads;
I see the shining sun ahead.
i know it doesnt really make sense, but to me it does-- i actually really like this, its kinda crazy but its what is going on in my head haha
-- :)
Friday, July 23, 2010
TIME....
Did you clock out of your mind?
And forgot it was time to say
'I'm Sorry'.
A firework goes off,
You check your watch;
Fifteen more minutes to go
Until you hit the unknown;
And then improve is all you have.
You should have sat down
And figured out this self-made mess.
It can make you heal.
It can make you forget.
Your greatest nightmare,
Your deepest regret.
Your prayer has been answered
And you wake up to see;
The picture has been flipped
Light is switched.
Live what good you have left,
And hear the clock tick.
tick tock tick tock tick tock...i wrote the first line and then decided i wanted to make this about time. i know it doesn't make too much sense; again interpret the way you feel necessary.
Smile the sun is shining :)) --Ms. Nicole
And forgot it was time to say
'I'm Sorry'.
A firework goes off,
You check your watch;
Fifteen more minutes to go
Until you hit the unknown;
And then improve is all you have.
You should have sat down
And figured out this self-made mess.
It can make you heal.
It can make you forget.
Your greatest nightmare,
Your deepest regret.
Your prayer has been answered
And you wake up to see;
The picture has been flipped
Light is switched.
Live what good you have left,
And hear the clock tick.
tick tock tick tock tick tock...i wrote the first line and then decided i wanted to make this about time. i know it doesn't make too much sense; again interpret the way you feel necessary.
Smile the sun is shining :)) --Ms. Nicole
My Security Blanket
The streets are made of gold,
Here, were never going to feel old
and we dance in rain or shine.
I hold you close
Cause you are forever mine
In this heavenly place we call Home.
You gave me everything I need;
You payed the price and did the deed.
My breath has been taken away
And I wouldn't need it back,
But I want to only sing your name.
My feet won't hurt from dancing
And my eyes are wet from my happy tears,
And my darkest fears,
Have have run away scared.
Theres not a big enough number to record my joys
and NO blue-eyed boy
can give or take what I've got inside
Cause I'm secure,
And it wasn't hard to find :)
another one. it was my best friends birthday yesterday, she turned 16 and i adore her so much. were like two peas in a pod :P i havent written in almost a week and it felt good to sit in bed before i actually went to sleep and have a blank a sheet of paper and pen.
-- :) Nicole
Here, were never going to feel old
and we dance in rain or shine.
I hold you close
Cause you are forever mine
In this heavenly place we call Home.
You gave me everything I need;
You payed the price and did the deed.
My breath has been taken away
And I wouldn't need it back,
But I want to only sing your name.
My feet won't hurt from dancing
And my eyes are wet from my happy tears,
And my darkest fears,
Have have run away scared.
Theres not a big enough number to record my joys
and NO blue-eyed boy
can give or take what I've got inside
Cause I'm secure,
And it wasn't hard to find :)
another one. it was my best friends birthday yesterday, she turned 16 and i adore her so much. were like two peas in a pod :P i havent written in almost a week and it felt good to sit in bed before i actually went to sleep and have a blank a sheet of paper and pen.
-- :) Nicole
Discovery the Truth
Your Dreams are so far
From where you are.
You need to chase them down,
Like your running the campaign for the king's crown.
Can you taste the wind?
Do you hear your sins
creeping on you now?
Forget the past
or it will tragically last
and it will destroy the real you
Can you hear the beat
Of your chattering teeth;
Trying to do this on your own?
the Guide Book is here
To make your path is clear
And the Light will never burn out into the dark.
so this is the part where i say "just written last night"....um well its true haha i just need to learn how to phrase it differently. I cant really explain this one, interpret it for yourself i guess. but i really do love this one, more than anything love thing ive written. haha i guess its cause i have no inspiration for those ones :) enjoy....
-- :)
From where you are.
You need to chase them down,
Like your running the campaign for the king's crown.
Can you taste the wind?
Do you hear your sins
creeping on you now?
Forget the past
or it will tragically last
and it will destroy the real you
Can you hear the beat
Of your chattering teeth;
Trying to do this on your own?
the Guide Book is here
To make your path is clear
And the Light will never burn out into the dark.
so this is the part where i say "just written last night"....um well its true haha i just need to learn how to phrase it differently. I cant really explain this one, interpret it for yourself i guess. but i really do love this one, more than anything love thing ive written. haha i guess its cause i have no inspiration for those ones :) enjoy....
-- :)
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Just Me in a Couple Words :)
So I've decided to take alittle break from all the writing and just do alittle somethig different, plus I'm going up North alittle bit and im going to be away from a computer in a little town called Fish Creek. [so no blogging :( ] Its a cute little town, I've been there before and its very peaceful. So I think I will get a lot of good writings done!!! :) So let's see...where do I start..... :)
SEVEN RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME....good place to start :P
1. I'm half Mexican and half Swiss
2. I wish I could be a ballet dancer
3. I love rings -- love unique and kinda crazy ones
4. I'm going to jail......haha jk. I'm just listening to a song called "I'm going to Jail" by Anarbor -- never been to an active jail, been to alcatrazin Cali.
5. I'm really into photography. Check out my flickr! http://www.flickr.com/photos/14305366@N03/ or my name is pinkberries950, you could try looking me up that way...
6. Never been in love - Still waiting boys! :P
7. i have a cat, her name is Missy
p.s. i dont like rice, but i eat it anyways haha
Confused? I don't even know....
I had this idea to call you up
I honestly don't know what I thought
I could have dialed my phone
and casually asked what's up?
The strangest urge that involved you.
I haven't had one of these since the last blue moon.
And I have no idea what to do.
^^
Wrote this yesterday evening, when i wanted to call up an old friend who i wasnt really friends with any more but we used to be close...i guess haha. so i was going to do it, but i thought maybe, oh God i have no idea what i was thinking. well anyways, i didn't do and i wonder what would have happened if i did, but im ok that i didnt.
Check 'The Maine''s new CD Called "Black and White"-- its amazing!!! I love it!! listening to it right now
um....i have to go soon...i have a long five hour drive up ahead of me with my 3rd cousin from Switzerland who came over two days ago. She's living with my grandparents and she's here to learn english better. So she's my new friend for the next couple of days! :) I 'm looking forward to the trip.
Thanks for reading.....
Love, Nicola :)
SEVEN RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME....good place to start :P
1. I'm half Mexican and half Swiss
2. I wish I could be a ballet dancer
3. I love rings -- love unique and kinda crazy ones
4. I'm going to jail......haha jk. I'm just listening to a song called "I'm going to Jail" by Anarbor -- never been to an active jail, been to alcatrazin Cali.
5. I'm really into photography. Check out my flickr! http://www.flickr.com/photos/14305366@N03/ or my name is pinkberries950, you could try looking me up that way...
6. Never been in love - Still waiting boys! :P
7. i have a cat, her name is Missy
p.s. i dont like rice, but i eat it anyways haha
Confused? I don't even know....
I had this idea to call you up
I honestly don't know what I thought
I could have dialed my phone
and casually asked what's up?
The strangest urge that involved you.
I haven't had one of these since the last blue moon.
And I have no idea what to do.
^^
Wrote this yesterday evening, when i wanted to call up an old friend who i wasnt really friends with any more but we used to be close...i guess haha. so i was going to do it, but i thought maybe, oh God i have no idea what i was thinking. well anyways, i didn't do and i wonder what would have happened if i did, but im ok that i didnt.
Check 'The Maine''s new CD Called "Black and White"-- its amazing!!! I love it!! listening to it right now
um....i have to go soon...i have a long five hour drive up ahead of me with my 3rd cousin from Switzerland who came over two days ago. She's living with my grandparents and she's here to learn english better. So she's my new friend for the next couple of days! :) I 'm looking forward to the trip.
Thanks for reading.....
Love, Nicola :)
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
My Summer Nights :)
We went out to explore
On this cool summer night,
Just you and I.
How did we miss the sunrise?
We were too distracted with each others eyes.
I have to admit, I was feeling kinda crazy.
I knew I was the one you adored,
And you were the one I fell for
In this cool summer night.
And you just could have might
Stolen a kiss,
Straight from my lips;
But there will be plenty of time
Cause you know that I will stick by your side.
Did you feel my heart soar
Straight through the clouds?
Out in the fields;
We can't say goodbye
And let our hearts run dry.
I'm loving to hear,
You call me 'my dear'.
The sky passes by,
Knowing there's more time
And another wonderful cool
Summer Night.
i had to write before i went to bed...
i was so inspired by this amazing singer/song writer-- David Cook (not the guy who one american idol, different guy) Hes also the lead singer of one of the greatest bands 'My Favorite Highway'. Dave recently just put out some songs and i cant stop listening to them. 'Perfect of Something' inspired me with this one; even though what i wrote is no way even comparable to his amazing lyrics. haha im actually listening to that song right now and i just want to swim in the melody. haha not thats physically possible.
--Ms. Nicola
On this cool summer night,
Just you and I.
How did we miss the sunrise?
We were too distracted with each others eyes.
I have to admit, I was feeling kinda crazy.
I knew I was the one you adored,
And you were the one I fell for
In this cool summer night.
And you just could have might
Stolen a kiss,
Straight from my lips;
But there will be plenty of time
Cause you know that I will stick by your side.
Did you feel my heart soar
Straight through the clouds?
Out in the fields;
We can't say goodbye
And let our hearts run dry.
I'm loving to hear,
You call me 'my dear'.
The sky passes by,
Knowing there's more time
And another wonderful cool
Summer Night.
i had to write before i went to bed...
i was so inspired by this amazing singer/song writer-- David Cook (not the guy who one american idol, different guy) Hes also the lead singer of one of the greatest bands 'My Favorite Highway'. Dave recently just put out some songs and i cant stop listening to them. 'Perfect of Something' inspired me with this one; even though what i wrote is no way even comparable to his amazing lyrics. haha im actually listening to that song right now and i just want to swim in the melody. haha not thats physically possible.
--Ms. Nicola
Monday, July 12, 2010
What I Do With You
The rain drums on my roof,
And I can't take my eyes away from the window;
Like I'm waiting for something to please me.
I dont feel the need to leave my apartment,
But if you join me, I'll dance with you
'Till im soaked and my skin is cold and ice-blue;
And we waited till the morning for the sun to dry us off.
It was so hot,
We cooked our eggs on the sidewalk.
And had cold pizza and coffee for breakfast
You know me,
Im not the one to start a fight.
But with our food,
I found it my morning delight
And i couldn't resist the temptation.
We found it hard to say goodbye,
Even when you went inside
Just to get some water
For our throats that were desert dry.
The street burned our feet,
As we ran trying to catch each other.
After awhile we didn't even bother
Cause we both knew,
You and Me and I had You.
Laying on the deck of my apartment,
Eating chocolate cake with our hands
You asked me if I wanted to start a band. ;)
This place use to be my castle,
You were the knight that climbed the wall,
Took me away;
And now we spend our days
Singning and laughing the blue colored rain.
You gave me inspiration I could trust
When I ran out of fairy dust.
We dressed up
Just to play together in the mud.
The sprinklers went off in the golf course next door.
We rolled in the green cut grass,
And tried hard to muffle our laughs.
The 16th hole was a puddle
And our new secret playground.
We swam with our clothes on
And took picutres underwater,
With your kodak camera.
When Summer turned to Fall,
The leaves changed color
But we stayed the same.
Then with the snow, we tried making igloos
Pretending we were eskimos.
Eating only the marshmellows out of our hot chocolate.
With the snowflakes in our hair,
We can't wait for the hot summer air.
So we can dance in the rain,
Burn our feet,
And every night watch the sun
Fall into a deep sleep.
written last night too. The first part would be my perfect day.
i think thats how its suppose to be, the never changing, surprising love.
the only thing is, i dont live in an apartment, oh well
it could still work.
-Ms. Nicola (i dont like nicolette so much anymore)
And I can't take my eyes away from the window;
Like I'm waiting for something to please me.
I dont feel the need to leave my apartment,
But if you join me, I'll dance with you
'Till im soaked and my skin is cold and ice-blue;
And we waited till the morning for the sun to dry us off.
It was so hot,
We cooked our eggs on the sidewalk.
And had cold pizza and coffee for breakfast
You know me,
Im not the one to start a fight.
But with our food,
I found it my morning delight
And i couldn't resist the temptation.
We found it hard to say goodbye,
Even when you went inside
Just to get some water
For our throats that were desert dry.
The street burned our feet,
As we ran trying to catch each other.
After awhile we didn't even bother
Cause we both knew,
You and Me and I had You.
Laying on the deck of my apartment,
Eating chocolate cake with our hands
You asked me if I wanted to start a band. ;)
This place use to be my castle,
You were the knight that climbed the wall,
Took me away;
And now we spend our days
Singning and laughing the blue colored rain.
You gave me inspiration I could trust
When I ran out of fairy dust.
We dressed up
Just to play together in the mud.
The sprinklers went off in the golf course next door.
We rolled in the green cut grass,
And tried hard to muffle our laughs.
The 16th hole was a puddle
And our new secret playground.
We swam with our clothes on
And took picutres underwater,
With your kodak camera.
When Summer turned to Fall,
The leaves changed color
But we stayed the same.
Then with the snow, we tried making igloos
Pretending we were eskimos.
Eating only the marshmellows out of our hot chocolate.
With the snowflakes in our hair,
We can't wait for the hot summer air.
So we can dance in the rain,
Burn our feet,
And every night watch the sun
Fall into a deep sleep.
written last night too. The first part would be my perfect day.
i think thats how its suppose to be, the never changing, surprising love.
the only thing is, i dont live in an apartment, oh well
it could still work.
-Ms. Nicola (i dont like nicolette so much anymore)
GoodBye
Can I just I'm not interested in the things you do,
You slow me down and I start to think what am I doing waiting around for you.
My mind is too tired to think of ways to fit you in;
The a-hole can't fit the square pin.
I'll know when your phone number shows up,
That you want some more,
If I want to sink and crash I'll let you know
Can we just say the war is over,
You can tell everyone you dominted over me.
But just to let you know,
The truth always comes out eventually.
So pick and choose the lies you want to spread;
Cause one day all this will come to an end.
They still all say your a good guy;
So don't worry, your reputation is alright
Just know that you can't screw me over next time.
I still feel you watching me,
Like your waiting for me to fall.
Casting a spell over me,
To end me once and for all.
Everyone's growing up.
I don't know why
But you seemed to have stopped short.
Maybe it's cause you have an excuse
For everthing you've "never done wrong".
You can't accept you've made mistakes too;
The world is big and it does'nt revolve around you.
Your too messed up to see,
Anything clearly.
I was walking down State Street.
The rain made me wet all the way down to my feet.
I think about how are friendship went wrong.
I'm too tired to figure it out,
And it's taking too long
I spot you from the window of my taxi;
and my definition of you has changing completely
Your not the same guy i once knew,
and I'm happy to say i dont really know you.
So let's get on without each other.
We seem to be doing a decent job so far.
You've done this plenty of times before.
So cheers to you,
A life of consisting of you is no more.
written while talking to a new friend who kinda inspired me.
this is my way of putting an old crappy memory to rest
actually its been at rest, i just was thinking about it last night cause i found an old journal
and i knew that its not even worth thinking about it
thats what i realized
so this is a final goodbye.
Bye -Ms. Nicola
You slow me down and I start to think what am I doing waiting around for you.
My mind is too tired to think of ways to fit you in;
The a-hole can't fit the square pin.
I'll know when your phone number shows up,
That you want some more,
If I want to sink and crash I'll let you know
Can we just say the war is over,
You can tell everyone you dominted over me.
But just to let you know,
The truth always comes out eventually.
So pick and choose the lies you want to spread;
Cause one day all this will come to an end.
They still all say your a good guy;
So don't worry, your reputation is alright
Just know that you can't screw me over next time.
I still feel you watching me,
Like your waiting for me to fall.
Casting a spell over me,
To end me once and for all.
Everyone's growing up.
I don't know why
But you seemed to have stopped short.
Maybe it's cause you have an excuse
For everthing you've "never done wrong".
You can't accept you've made mistakes too;
The world is big and it does'nt revolve around you.
Your too messed up to see,
Anything clearly.
I was walking down State Street.
The rain made me wet all the way down to my feet.
I think about how are friendship went wrong.
I'm too tired to figure it out,
And it's taking too long
I spot you from the window of my taxi;
and my definition of you has changing completely
Your not the same guy i once knew,
and I'm happy to say i dont really know you.
So let's get on without each other.
We seem to be doing a decent job so far.
You've done this plenty of times before.
So cheers to you,
A life of consisting of you is no more.
written while talking to a new friend who kinda inspired me.
this is my way of putting an old crappy memory to rest
actually its been at rest, i just was thinking about it last night cause i found an old journal
and i knew that its not even worth thinking about it
thats what i realized
so this is a final goodbye.
Bye -Ms. Nicola
Monday, July 5, 2010
the Father Fracture
I don't know why,
But I can't decide,
Where to go from here.
Out on my own;
Destroying what's close to my heart.
Things aren't clear.
You turned me around;
Drew me out,
Of the hole I dug myself.
Something I know,
Is about to change.
He is the only One,
That can answer my cry for help.
Blurred men depicted as walking trees;
A lay of hands one more time,
And then I saw everything clearly.
My fracture is healing,
I'm praying and knealing;
I need to get some things straight.
I know who I am,
No more feelings are going to be the root of my plans.
I'm starting to break free.
As I cry "Abba Father",
I know now, there's no more need to wander.
The ocean is calm,
I will follow Him forever on;
Now to my greatest destiny.
The voice is clear,
I start to hear,
And speak words I cannot comprehend.
With Him I am strong;
So devil, don't even try to bring it on.
I walk with Him by my side,
With these pure feelings in my heart and my mind;
I've got nothing shameful to hide.
written yesterday [happy independence day! :)] and today.
I've been thinking a lot of what my Pastor has been teaching about--the Father Fracture;
meaning sometimes we have the wrong image of God. like 'He doesn't want to heal us' or 'not wanting to bless us'. or 'it's just not our time for those things to happen'. but He loves us so dearly, why wouldn't He want to do those things?
it just gave me something to chew on and digest--really made me think on how I view God.
obviously been thinking about it a lot or else i would have never written this.
honestly, I like this piece more than any other thing I've written-- cause actually it gives me comfort and happiness
--Ms. Nicolette :)
But I can't decide,
Where to go from here.
Out on my own;
Destroying what's close to my heart.
Things aren't clear.
You turned me around;
Drew me out,
Of the hole I dug myself.
Something I know,
Is about to change.
He is the only One,
That can answer my cry for help.
Blurred men depicted as walking trees;
A lay of hands one more time,
And then I saw everything clearly.
My fracture is healing,
I'm praying and knealing;
I need to get some things straight.
I know who I am,
No more feelings are going to be the root of my plans.
I'm starting to break free.
As I cry "Abba Father",
I know now, there's no more need to wander.
The ocean is calm,
I will follow Him forever on;
Now to my greatest destiny.
The voice is clear,
I start to hear,
And speak words I cannot comprehend.
With Him I am strong;
So devil, don't even try to bring it on.
I walk with Him by my side,
With these pure feelings in my heart and my mind;
I've got nothing shameful to hide.
written yesterday [happy independence day! :)] and today.
I've been thinking a lot of what my Pastor has been teaching about--the Father Fracture;
meaning sometimes we have the wrong image of God. like 'He doesn't want to heal us' or 'not wanting to bless us'. or 'it's just not our time for those things to happen'. but He loves us so dearly, why wouldn't He want to do those things?
it just gave me something to chew on and digest--really made me think on how I view God.
obviously been thinking about it a lot or else i would have never written this.
honestly, I like this piece more than any other thing I've written-- cause actually it gives me comfort and happiness
--Ms. Nicolette :)
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Dawn
Listen while Reading. David Lanz - 'Painting the Sun'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-E5TSvNu0Ek
Tonight he had His first cigarette,
And her middle name was Nicolette.
Together they sang 'til their lungs could have burst;
To only catch that one breath
They laid in the dew covered grass.
Dirt and grass stains on their backs, hair a ratty mess,
They watched the dawn break like a piece of glass.
Then their breath became visible in the orange colored light.
Feeling the dirt underneath their fingertips,
With their toes so cold and off-white
Some how they knew that everything would be alright.
That night, we could hear the world spin;
Just us two.
That was it.
That's all we really knew
Him and I, the grass and the dew.
Just finished writing this about a couple of minutes ago.
This morning i made strawberry ice cream with all the windows open and then sun gliding in.
I played some of my favoirte music by Dustin O'halloran, he composes music so beautifully and plays the piano so elegantly. I also really love Davids Lanz's piece - 'Painting the Sun'.
It was a relaxing morning.
These writings are from no personal experience, though i wish they were. My imagination is my greatest strength, and thats real reason i can dream, wish, and write decent.
-Ms. Nicolette
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-E5TSvNu0Ek
Tonight he had His first cigarette,
And her middle name was Nicolette.
Together they sang 'til their lungs could have burst;
To only catch that one breath
They laid in the dew covered grass.
Dirt and grass stains on their backs, hair a ratty mess,
They watched the dawn break like a piece of glass.
Then their breath became visible in the orange colored light.
Feeling the dirt underneath their fingertips,
With their toes so cold and off-white
Some how they knew that everything would be alright.
That night, we could hear the world spin;
Just us two.
That was it.
That's all we really knew
Him and I, the grass and the dew.
Just finished writing this about a couple of minutes ago.
This morning i made strawberry ice cream with all the windows open and then sun gliding in.
I played some of my favoirte music by Dustin O'halloran, he composes music so beautifully and plays the piano so elegantly. I also really love Davids Lanz's piece - 'Painting the Sun'.
It was a relaxing morning.
These writings are from no personal experience, though i wish they were. My imagination is my greatest strength, and thats real reason i can dream, wish, and write decent.
-Ms. Nicolette
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Simple Love
Clouded, streaked skies.
The sun with wind intermingle and dance over our bear skin.
We were once part of that lost generation,
And the seeds of our conversation
Now bloom.
Covered mountain tops,
A corroded penny drops,
And our world comes to a silent stop,
And the colors are rotated.
The view is different.
The current has shifted.
The sun is no where to be seen;
We've been blinded by what the heartbroken call 'the greatest scheme'.
We will not fall back into foreign hands.
This new discovery is our new end;
And we will remain here, unbroken.
Lying here, with words unspoken,
But emotion is captured in your slightest touch.
And the colors are rotated.
Our picture is brighter than the normal black and white;
Our lavish scribbles dominate with our laughter and the sun's light.
With the happy glow of the fireplace,
I study the landscape of your face.
You watch my eyes dance and shine,
like a full moon on black lake.
The wheel of colors is never ending,
As we share our new common beginning.
And the colors on the kaleidoscope are rotated.
I wrote this last night after my family and i came home from a day downtown. The sun and good food in my stomach inspired me.
Love should be simple, if you are familiar with the movie, it should not be like 'The Notebook'. Love shouldn't have to cause drama, it's not a rough waves on the sea.
This poem, if I can call it that, starts off with the sun and the wind, indicating its day time and then towards the end, the fireplace and the moon, indicating night. One full day.
No 'he said, she said', no words exchanged between the two, but simple actions, that if you watched them, you could gather their passion for one another.
As for the rotation of colors, again, love should be an endless rainbow of colors that you have never witnesses before. Just like in a kaleidoscope, colors, shapes and lights rays; love should be as easy as turning a kaleidoscope in different directions to only obtain stunning unique images. Except unlike a kaleidoscope, the colors are never ending and only get better. For a conclusion, simple love should always be surprising and never get old.
-Ms. Nicolette
The sun with wind intermingle and dance over our bear skin.
We were once part of that lost generation,
And the seeds of our conversation
Now bloom.
Covered mountain tops,
A corroded penny drops,
And our world comes to a silent stop,
And the colors are rotated.
The view is different.
The current has shifted.
The sun is no where to be seen;
We've been blinded by what the heartbroken call 'the greatest scheme'.
We will not fall back into foreign hands.
This new discovery is our new end;
And we will remain here, unbroken.
Lying here, with words unspoken,
But emotion is captured in your slightest touch.
And the colors are rotated.
Our picture is brighter than the normal black and white;
Our lavish scribbles dominate with our laughter and the sun's light.
With the happy glow of the fireplace,
I study the landscape of your face.
You watch my eyes dance and shine,
like a full moon on black lake.
The wheel of colors is never ending,
As we share our new common beginning.
And the colors on the kaleidoscope are rotated.
I wrote this last night after my family and i came home from a day downtown. The sun and good food in my stomach inspired me.
Love should be simple, if you are familiar with the movie, it should not be like 'The Notebook'. Love shouldn't have to cause drama, it's not a rough waves on the sea.
This poem, if I can call it that, starts off with the sun and the wind, indicating its day time and then towards the end, the fireplace and the moon, indicating night. One full day.
No 'he said, she said', no words exchanged between the two, but simple actions, that if you watched them, you could gather their passion for one another.
As for the rotation of colors, again, love should be an endless rainbow of colors that you have never witnesses before. Just like in a kaleidoscope, colors, shapes and lights rays; love should be as easy as turning a kaleidoscope in different directions to only obtain stunning unique images. Except unlike a kaleidoscope, the colors are never ending and only get better. For a conclusion, simple love should always be surprising and never get old.
-Ms. Nicolette
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